one of my baby pecan trees
Lying in bed this morning, musing about being old (or at least older), I think about how I generally ache when I get up now. Sometimes from gardening or playing racquetball, but I think even from sitting in front of the TV or computer. I'm just stiff and sore when I get up: my back, my neck, my shoulders...it's okay, it's not debilitating, it just makes me think about when I used to jump up every morning, happy and ready to go.
I have "mental aches" too. Even when I am not really unhappy, there is "stuff" in the back of my mind weighing me down. Not just the big unhappy events, like the recent deaths, but lots of little details of my life. I am happy and even a little excited to be taking this course on making videos, for instance, but that means I need to do my homework. I want to be a good "green" citizen, but in order to do that, I need to arrange for carpooling to said class. I like cooking and eating locally and saving money and being healthy, but all that is work. Not to say it is unpleasant, and as I lie there I think of all I have to be grateful for. But even that reminds me of the many people who have less than I do to be grateful for (and more to be unhappy about) and adds to the burden of responsibility and sadness. That is not to say I am dwelling on it or depressed about it, it is more about the nature of human beings and getting old.
I also found a tick in my hair this morning--gross! But it is now down the drain. I think it was newly arrived and had not latched on yet.
Yesterday morning, Ray and I went and ushered for a Rose of Athens production of Winnie the Pooh. It was a children's show and several classes came to see it. It was very good and we enjoyed seeing people we knew (including neighbor Katie Dodson). I must say that it was more professional than many plays I have seen and been involved in lately. I think it is a professional non-profit theater, that is, the actors are paid.
We picked up Vanessa and went to the grocery store. Ray was a little obnoxious checking out. Vanessa and I stood there watching while he scanned and bagged the groceries. We were not allowed to help at all. sigh.
Had some lunch and did some work outside--it was cool and overcast with drops of rain, but didn't really rain. Captain watered the garden with water from the rain barrels, quite a production. We made a big salad for potluck and picked up Janna to take with us. I think she enjoyed it, talking mostly to Ange. Ray took her home while I went to choir rehearsal and sang.
I have "mental aches" too. Even when I am not really unhappy, there is "stuff" in the back of my mind weighing me down. Not just the big unhappy events, like the recent deaths, but lots of little details of my life. I am happy and even a little excited to be taking this course on making videos, for instance, but that means I need to do my homework. I want to be a good "green" citizen, but in order to do that, I need to arrange for carpooling to said class. I like cooking and eating locally and saving money and being healthy, but all that is work. Not to say it is unpleasant, and as I lie there I think of all I have to be grateful for. But even that reminds me of the many people who have less than I do to be grateful for (and more to be unhappy about) and adds to the burden of responsibility and sadness. That is not to say I am dwelling on it or depressed about it, it is more about the nature of human beings and getting old.
I also found a tick in my hair this morning--gross! But it is now down the drain. I think it was newly arrived and had not latched on yet.
Yesterday morning, Ray and I went and ushered for a Rose of Athens production of Winnie the Pooh. It was a children's show and several classes came to see it. It was very good and we enjoyed seeing people we knew (including neighbor Katie Dodson). I must say that it was more professional than many plays I have seen and been involved in lately. I think it is a professional non-profit theater, that is, the actors are paid.
We picked up Vanessa and went to the grocery store. Ray was a little obnoxious checking out. Vanessa and I stood there watching while he scanned and bagged the groceries. We were not allowed to help at all. sigh.
Had some lunch and did some work outside--it was cool and overcast with drops of rain, but didn't really rain. Captain watered the garden with water from the rain barrels, quite a production. We made a big salad for potluck and picked up Janna to take with us. I think she enjoyed it, talking mostly to Ange. Ray took her home while I went to choir rehearsal and sang.
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