Happy new year!

I might start blogging more...it's not really a resolution, more of a side effect. I woke up this morning with a headache, so I took some cold medicine. That might be what inspired me to make a very vague resolution. It's not really to do anything or give up doing something. It's just to give myself permission to relax. I have a lot of rules in my head, to do things a certain way or in a certain order, and my resolution for 2015 is to give myself permission to break those rules, to forgive myself (and maybe others) for not always doing things I think I should. That may or may not result in any changed behavior. It may mean I forgive myself for not forgiving myself. Right now, though, it feels good.

The fact that I have nothing I have to do today may be a factor as well. Most of the people I know are still asleep. I am sitting in my (dirty) bathrobe enjoying the sun coming in and drinking tea on the couch. I am breathing more deeply than usual and trying not to think about things I could/should be doing. Maybe I am resolving to be more in the moment, but without obligation attached. If I feel like it.

I'm not sure about technology...does this mean spending less time connected? I know my devices can cause me to be stressed, especially when they seem not to be working right. I know I was pretty horrified by the amount of time people (especially women) around me last night at a public New Year's Eve part spent looking at their phones. Sometimes we were taking pictures of ourselves and each other. Sometimes we were showing each other photos on our phones. Sometimes I was keeping in touch with loved ones not present.

But mostly, I just preferred muy phone to what was gng on around me. Maybe I don't like noise and crowds.