Sushanth, Patty, Ray
I found this picture from a couple years ago when I was deleting files on my computer.
Yesterday morning I dropped my mother off at yoga, Ray downtown to take a bus to his office, and got to my work at 8:02. I worked for 4 hours, including buying groceries. The children are in camp and need sunscreen, which is not cheap. At noon, Ray and I met at Legion Pool. It is so relaxing there. I could stay all day. I even read a novel. Then we came home and I worked on my class some, had a pleasant dinner, watched TV and went to bed at a decent hour. I found myself at bedtime wondering what was missing--I had work, play, exercise, time with Ray...maybe cause I didn't do any cooking? Or maybe the Polly syndrome: are we having fun yet? Or is that all there is? I didn't talk to Amelia, but I did talk to Molli. Maybe not enough volunteer work...I didn't talk to any of my friends. I didn't do any gardening. I think maybe it is lack of kids at my house.
I think it's just the human condition. We're programmed to want more--not necessarily material things, but in general, we're a driven species. It helps us progress, but it can cause unhappiness, too. I think maybe learning to accept that that feeling will always be there to some extent might help. But yeah, I bet not having kids around makes it more acute.
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